"Allow your fear, if only for a moment. Acknowledge the fear that the terrorists have created in you, and move through it, and then let it go, and know that there is nothing to fear. As you move within your own mind, and move to understand that separation is the factor that motivates fear, then you can recognize that you are never alone, and are never the victim, unless you choose to be a victim."

Spirit Guide Dr. Peebles, Linda Pendleton

via intuition

may 17

today was a big day in a good way :) i realize now that i sat naked for a long while in the open air from my bedroom window admiring the day without realizing that i was naked. i wore the purple, off-the-shoulders shirt that isn’t flattering for my body just because i like it and i enjoyed it. i soaked up everybody like a sponge and, in the same moment, i radiated their happiness back like a mirror… a sponge mirror? my soul is fulfilled when i give to -love- others and i am good at helping others love themselves while i work on loving myself. nothing is a better high. it’s a wonderful cycle that gets stronger/more natural everyday.

i’ve been searching for new jewelry for a while and today i found perfect earrings. i choose earrings carefully and i only look at posts because i need to be able to wear them until i take them out and i only do this when i’ve gained all that i can from their energy. (i have been doing this ever since i can remember with all jewelries.) anyways, these earrings are dangly! it’s a first in a long time for me… i am not thinking that it’s a hassle to take them out at night meaning that i feel comfortable taking them out at night/being without them meaning i am more comfortable with myself. these earrings and i share a beautiful appreciation and i love them. the store owner told me a bit about them and they are tibetan green turquoise. i don’t know what that means to specialists although the inspiration i felt from them instantly brightened me up, and it lead me to hours of deep thought tonight.

this thought began from the first 15 pages of a book. i’ve been meaning to read it for a while but was waiting for the inspired moment… jewelry and gems for self-discovery by shakti carola navran. i connect with the author on many levels, and her insight is a great guide for me. although something that intrigues me is how simply she put beauty as a sacred gift…

“I notice that when I feel more connected to my true being I am in awe of all the beauty around me. Beauty makes me feel so grateful for my life. Appreciation for beauty helps me to be fully in the present moment; it makes me feel complete and content. Beauty is a precious gift that has the power to transform our lives from a mundane, gray existence into one that is colorful and exultant. I call these gifts from God; others may refer to the divine or the Spirit or use other terms, but the idea of beauty as a sacred gift remains the same.”

i questioned her approach instantly, in various lights. i asked some friends but nobody really seemed interested. it struck me deeply because i struggle with phases when accepting both myself and others is hard work and i feel guilty about it. i want to be able to always accept myself and everyone else without questioning personas. this idea of beauty as a gift from divinity helps me contextualize self-love and acceptance, my greatest struggle.

as of right now i know little about [sacred] textbook chakra power. however i know enough to connect it to divinity by the depth of my natural experience through it and the relation to specific instances in my life. it puts words where i can’t. the philosophy of beauty being a divine gift creates a paradox or conflict between genetics and spirituality… an ancient war. i know beauty is all encompassing and equal for everyone, however that is not the universal realization and i am interested in understanding the wholeness in as much specificity as possible for my life path.

i’m guessing this idea is explained somewhere although i want to explore it for myself, in my own way without research, because it intrigued me powerfully and the thought pattern has done wonders already… as of right now, these are my rambling thoughts.

to start, i’m sticking with beauty concerning humanity which is mostly physical. the majority of people have types and certain attractions and for the huge majority, not everyone is beautiful to everyone in every moment, especially by eroticism and personality. the idea of beauty is influenced by countless sources; societies being the most impressionable. through rigid ideologies about beauty, societies construct more opportunities for life experiences to those who fit the ideal… such as white privilege or nowadays the idolized unidentified mixed race/mixed sex that passes as white, celebrities, pop culture, royal/indigenous bloodlines ect… for these people, could it be possible that they access their powers by increasing their consciousness through the many ‘worldly’ opportunities -> experiences at their fingertips created through social acceptance… meaning they need beauty because their personal consciousness couldn’t make it past hunger or an illness… something they couldn’t have the opportunity to fulfill without beauty?

although, everybody is equal. many historically white religions, cultures, or doctrines dismiss ideals such as anything but penis and vagina, family is biological only, slavery, anyone that isn’t like you is an enemy, the physical is the only truth, make lots of money(better standing in the church) ect… which in my opinion is the same as living without universal love, explicitly inhibiting chakra/spiritual advancement/peace in many ways but easily exemplified by others controlling/molding others to their own ideals.

in connection, i understand that even some more naturally attuned to universal love through familiarity to indigenous cultures/eastern philosophies relate spirituality to social structured pyramids that allow for life to be more easily *fully* experienced when socially accepted. Status/spiritual standing is from the top down to the bottom and those that don’t fit society’s standard of beauty from birth don’t receive as many opportunities that seem to be able to deepen personal understandings. first of all, those blessed with beauty don’t necessarily have to focus on the depth of the 1st chakra such as identity (they are inertially accepted on a level foreign to anyone else) or survival because their hierarchy of needs are filled… unless these people are influenced by suicidal thoughts or life-threatening experiences in other ways, something i was very familiar with at a young age.  although at the same time, fasting is promoted for spiritual advancement… however fasting would be a monk’s choice and for those in socially forced poverty it is obvious that fasting is not a choice. but it makes sense for a monk to fast in order to balance their divinity with physicality… so at the same time, one that is born without social beauty and put into a lower social standing, do they naturally connect more with ‘down-to-earth’ ideas/universal love?

therefore could it be plausible that one is given the divine gift of beauty/genetics when they need it the most in relation to either/both universal love and the hierarchy of needs? could a life be provided with social standard beauty to provide opportunities for self-realization and natural chakra advancement without the heritage/a connection such as those effected by western ideals and slavery? although, universal love has proven to me that everyone is everyone and therefore everyone has just as many opportunities for spiritual advancement… even if oppressed or not blessed with beauty.

since humanity is in such turmoil, it seems to me that most people with beauty/social power haven’t activated their chakras to much potential. even if we are all given the same quality of opportunities, we all must differ majorly in our acceptance of them… why!

i am working on an understanding of the universe and love’s provision of equal opportunity for everyone to become who they’re meant to be… And social standing, its cooperation with beauty and the hierarchy of needs. if the opportunities for everyone’s life fulfillment is naturally offered by a divine gift, is it important or imprudent for me to want to help create/stabilize political or social opportunities similar to a universal white privilege?

(Source: plhiszh)

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